I Knew Something Was Wrong, You Carried The Weight Of The World On Your Shoulders, [A Personal Memorial Reflection]

 

I know you always said, "To be pretty, you have to work for it."

You were always really tough too.

XXXOOO

"Her doctor said she couldn't take Zantac any more...she couldn't take the other drug either. The interaction was also at issue, drug(Zantac) was/would/will going to give her cancer. She would have to stop taking the drug now." 2015ish 2016... (i think granny was at bingo or reading a book)

She...

Didn't eat a lot,

Didn't drink a lot,

Didn't smoke,

Wasn't overweight,

Actively exercised regularly,

She was taking the drug, having what was believed to be acid reflux. But was still having problems (symptoms), she was trying to figure out why. That is when her doctor told her that she said. It was a combination of having been told it was ok and then told not ok. I have not seen all the records, but i think she may have been recommended to take the drug from her doctor before that one as well. She had been taking it for a while.

Then,

Conflicting diagnosis about what the problem was. Went from a backwash of acid from the stomach into the esophagus (acid reflux) requiring surgery (planned for in a few weeks) to "that's not what it was... It was really the esophagus was too tight just above the stomach. That's what the problem was. She was told to stop eating things like bread and pizza because it was getting stuck." 2012?

Then the coughing

Stomach aches.

More stomach aches.

Gassy and poopy.

Then pain pills

Sleeping pills

Then more pain meds

Then more sleeping pills

Then chemo

Then that's all, where's my mom? ( my holidays?my good advice and bad, a mentor, an experienced guide, inspiration for determination and perseverance, my reality checker, shoulder, ear.

From then until now. Before 2015. Maybe 2010, 2012 (or earlier, check the charts).

Eye Drops, thyroid medicine,

Antihistamine and inhalers. High blood pressure medicine. Tried probiotics to help relieve symptoms. Sleeping pills. Pain medicine.  More pain medicine. Mentioned hogikins disease and didn't want a pee bag. I told her, as long as we had her it would be okay. She would be the same wonderful person.

I miss you. 

Life is sometimes very hard for a long time.

Take care of your family too. Listen;

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